"Let it go, let it go, turn away & slam the door"
Letting go. Letting go has never been my strong forte. I don't deal with people leaving me that well. I don't deal with leaving people that well either. I just don't deal with leaving that well, period. I am without a doubt, one of the most easily attached person in my life. I like the comfort I get with the familiarity of things. So when people leave me, or I have to leave, that destroys the familiarity that I am used to. Therefore, I don't deal with it well.
I had a phase where letting go was just something impossible for me to do. But my parents would always remind me this, "Whatever God has taken away from you, trust in God that God is going to replace it with someone/something much better".
Of course that sounds like the cheesiest line ever, especially when you're so emotionally scarred. But seriously, try it. Just for a brief moment, let yourself believe that something better will come your way, if you'd just let this one go without any hard feelings, without any negativity and put your trust in God. Let yourself see "the better days", and believe in God. God is The Most Loving towards His servants and above all, He loves those that put their trust in Him. Try it, and I can guarantee you that slowly, slowly you'll deal with letting things go better.
At least that happened to me.
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Sometimes you just know when something isn't right. When something is about to go wrong, you'd feel it. As this continuously repeats itself, that special sensor of yours become stronger and stronger. Eventually you will actually laugh first at the sight of a storm coming while thinking, "I knew it" with a little smirk, in your head because you're right for the 10,000th time. But what you do not realise that as time progress, with every little "I was right" smirk comes also disappointment. With every disappointment, your walls get higher, your guards are more alert. And then suddenly you realise that your walls are so high that you're left confused as to whether your sensor is alerting you of an actual storm coming or you're just afraid of a little whip of fresh air.
But in Him I put my trust in.
